11. Time of Our Lives
My best friend. My excused soul. So hard was it to finally let you walk right out of my world for eternity. However I would feel worse about it had you didn’t block me years ago. What was it? The time spent believing this was a lie too much?
Look where the world is today…
“Boy I wanted to fuck this woman so bad that night. But my loyalty. ”
Basically I took her virginity. The fire guy did not count (you’ll learn more situations like this soon). She chose me one day in the gameroom at St. Phillips college yet we remained best of friends for a decade after. Nothing more, nothing less.
“I still cannot drive past a sea island til this day without our memories replaying”
We shared many outs and in’s to the point I could not believe we were still friends until the day she came to my hotel that one night, after I forgot something at her house. I had just got back with Erin. I was homeless for a few months and Natasha took me in while I got my shit together. Knowing our history, and how fat her cakes was, I was fighting temptation to remain faithful to someone I didn’t have a true connection to just yet. She even laid on her stomach across the coach from me, ass all hanging out and everything. For some reason even tho she got chubby my presence put some good vibes and motivated her to work out harder. Every week she came home sexier and sexier. Everyday I knew I wasn’t crossing the line however. Something told me not to. Never went past thoughts…
By the time I had a hotel and she came to bring me my stuff, she was looking the same as the day she first collected my soul as best friends (56). I had to watch that perfect ass walk away knowing we should have went ROUNDS all night. Raw..
“Every big break in sean’s timeline included this woman”
Through every giant club appearance. Every break up. Through every aspect of my prime all the way from myspace, she played a big role in me starting to write. I believe this blog would not be here today if she didn’t show me livejournal. I’m truly sick for two things. 1. To see you give up on the dream of this world to cave back too deep into reality just when times are great for who you used to be. A remix song Queen. Such a beautiful dancer. This woman would’ve ran tik tok. Instead she’s fat and out of spirit. Sorry. Truth has to hurt as much as removing you from my world for eternity. 😩
